Sometimes, I wish I kept up with things.

So I got my degree. I hold a bachelor's degree in Sociology and Applied Social Relations. However, I also took a focus in criminology and I minored in political science. Both of course which don't really appear on the degree, people are just supposed to 'go look at the courses I took themselves'.

In the end, it just seems, after four years of college, I'm not quite certain that I actually enjoyed committing so much time to that lame piece of paper.

I was pushed to go into grad programs, but with so much on my plate for what I was doing at the time, I missed a lot of deadlines, and hell. Now I just believe that it would have really killed me.

Anyway, I'm an (assistant) manager now for GameStop. Great out of college job? I suppose of all retail hells to be a part of, it most certainly is the most tolerable. Because the state is on hiring freeze and there is no real in's for jobs that apply to my degree, I'm kind of stuck here.

For a while, I thought that I was dealt a crap hand in that regard. As school was wrapping up, I saw nothing in store for my future - a degree I can't use, a job that technically anyone with mild experience can be eligible for... I wish that I could apply myself a little more.

However, I found many of these things to be a blessing in disguise. Someone asked me not too long ago, "When is the last time you went on vacation? Went somewhere? Took time off?" Honestly, I had no real answer.. I've been so concerned with things "that simply must be", like going to class, work, or both in any given day. I've been adamant to get to where I am, without even realizing what that would exactly do for me.

So now, as I see it, I'm finally out of school. I've reached a huge milestone in my life, and while I may not quite understand what that will bring me now, I'm sure I'll get it right sooner or later. Also, because my work is my only obligation, perhaps simply taking time for myself isn't an impossibility.

I suppose for years now I've been searching to figure out how to make these ends meet. I find myself to be an extremely mixed up person, but now I guess I can look at all these puzzle pieces in my head and maybe make sense of it all.

I mean, I actually had time enough to do this. It's my day off, and it's only 10:15 AM. What's stopping me from getting in my car and finding the middle of nowhere to spend some much needed quality time?